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(I'm feeling depressed)
i dont know how to start a blog.......dont know people will watch it or not...who cares!!!!!4m today i'll try to write watever comes to my **** mind..:D
well it feels baad 2 c someone going with some1 in front of me.i was thinking myself a giant coward,asshole during that time. i even missed a chance to see her face while i was getting down through the stairs.wat an asshole i am!!!!!!!!!!!i should have looked into her eyes and try to xpress her that i liked her sweet face.well, i dont love her, but i dont look at her in such a way that she's hot...i liked her face face coz she seems to b an innocent girl.may b she has a bf, and shes loves him greatly,but who cares????somebody has to think about me!!!!i dont want myself to b single, i want someone with whoom i'll share my best moments of my life, someone very special..but, ALAS!! iwas single, am single and wont b in a relationship in future i guess..lol...but one thing let me write staraight to u...i guess she already guesses that i like her...coz everytime i look at her her, i usually get caught by her...well, i hope she understands!!!!!coz I AM A SUPPER COWARD...when i'll hav the courage to face her????I do have a little bit(too much) ego problem that i cant demand anything 4m anyone thinking that he/she may reject me...well,it hurts when someone rejects..and thinking of that pain i'm gonna get, i dont demand anything 4m others xcept my close frnds and my parents..i even fear of asking something 4m my sis..lol....wat an asshole i am!!!!BUT ...soon i'll b changed. i have already changed...2morrow is the result of my 10th semester...hoping 2 get a good grade...if i get good mark, my confidence level will increase more and more...which i need it too badly.....need to hav a smoke right now.....NOBODY prays 4 me xcept my family......I got to do better and change myself and prove others that I CAN...yes, Tushar(my name) can do that and he'll prove this out this summer...do watever u do all perverts(not u, i'm saying it to my foes)...things hav changed now...now tush doesnt look 4 others for help.....he can do it by himself..and very soon he's gonna prove more....a long way to go!!!!lol...HAH HAH HAH ;).....NOW I'M FEELING GOOD :D :D
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