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2009

May

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i'm listening now.....
i don't want to fight
listen
(sigh)
free. that's it.
i'm pissed cause i'm lonely
we'll be stronger
i'm afraid?
i'm tired
i know i'm effed up
the things i love
after 7 days

February

January

2008

FRIDAY, APRIL 3, 2009 (10:32 AM)

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after 7 days

yesterday was the hardest day,
i thought about you all day and all night.
i thought all of those most dreaded things-
what if i don't see him for a really long time?
what if i never see him again...
what if he forgets me and decides that it's just not what he wants anymore.

i know that those things are from fear,
and that none of them are real.
i feel a little arrogant saying that i believe that none are real,
but it's something i have to say and believe
if i really believe that you love me.

i do believe that you love me,
and i love the way you love me.
i just love all of your ways,
everything that you do, the way you think, the way you are...
you're so special to me...you're so, so incredibly special.

instead of being sad,
i'm going to put all of my energy into everything i do.
the things i do for myself, the things i do for you and the things i do for us.
i'll make myself better, and replace all of the mistakes I made,
and replace everything that could have been better
with the best.

you're the best for me,
and i want nothing but the best for you.
you make me smile.
and every time we meet,
it's just like the first time.
it's a strange phenomenon-
really, every time, just like the first.

i still get nervous around you,
i'm still hiding parts of my true personality...
i'm just trying to be too cool... that's all.
and trying to be too cool is totally not cool at all...

i want to show you who i am,
the goofy, i don't care who's watching side...
the part that's so sensitive, the parts i haven't really shown everyone...
i'm beginning to show you these things,
and i want to show you more...and i'm sorry i haven't thus far,
but it's difficult for me sometimes.

but you're worth it...
you're worth every effort and every second of it.
i just can't wait to be with you again,
you make me so proud...
i hope i can make you proud too.

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