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TUESDAY, NOVEMBER 11, 2008 (2:59 AM)

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Defense Mechanism

(I'm feeling worried)

There are three times in my life that I can recall going into a state such as this one. One where all I can do is be paralyzed in shock, fear and anticipation. Everything's not all right...and it's not me that it's not all right for. It's someone I love and dearly care for..

One time in particular that I remember going into thise state of mind was when I was younger. I can't remember my exact age, but I was younger. Someone had broken into my house. All our things had been gone through. We had just gone out to eat at a resturant with my grandparents. I coulnd't say much of anything. All I did was shiver and shake...just like now. My words cannot be verballly formed, I just sit here shaking. Panic mode to the extreme.

What do you do to help somone after they tell you what I was just told? How do you fix it? Is it fixable? Am I doing the right thing? I feel like I need to vomit. Alas, I won't say a word about what you said, dear person, I'll just sit here and pray and think and sob and shake. I want to help you. I want to make things okay for you. To not have you in my life would leave me utterly useless and in a permanant state of unhappiness and depression.

I can most likely guess all the assumptions you guys are coming to by reading this blog. I can also tell you that they are all wrong. I just want to be there for this wonderful person who has made my life actually liveable, and I don't know how.

Can I PLEASE wake up from this nightmare, please?

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Posted Nov 11, 08 by donde113 (

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god that helpless feeling of being unable to do anything
i dont know what to say that can make things clearer katey
only follow your instincts its the best you can do

Posted Nov 11, 08 by GregLions (

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I think the best thing you can do at times like this is let the person know you are with them in spirit. Do not underestimate the comfort that you bring them just in their knowing that.