pain is the aspect of felling numb and hurting at the same time why am i here why am i alone why is the world spinning wile i stand still and why do i get a feeling that you love to hate me the pain is greater then the numbness  and i feel the knife and it lovely it scares me that iu like the feeling of the world stoping as i scream fuck you it a freak thing and i dont giv4e a fuck what you think of me as long as you think of me