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THURSDAY, JUNE 26, 2008 (11:49 PM)

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I posted this a while back on another site, given the circumstances I figured I'd post it again.

I can't even express in words how much my Mother means to me. I try to do all I can for her, all that she's willing to let me do for her anyway. Sometimes I have to trick her into letting me do things for her. I just want her to be happy, and to have all the things she deserves; be it material possessions' or just simple love.

After I had my babies I viewed love from a completely different perspective. I always knew that I loved my Mother. I became aware of why I loved her so much recently. Now I'm not sure if it's got something to do with the bond between a mother and a child, but things suddenly came into this heightened state of love. Hopefully that's going to make sense to someone other than me.

The majority of people have loved someone in their lifetime, whether it was a parent or partner, or even a pet. But how many people really understood why they loved? People get caught up and confused when it comes to love. I think that they want to feel it so bad that they force the feeling, or they confuse it for something else. I've asked people before when they say they love someone or something, why? Most of the time what they explain to me doesn't say love. Great like, obsession, lust, or fascination perhaps. You can't love out of compassion, or lust, or fascination, or obsession, or even out of obligation. You have to just let love happen. There really aren't any set reasons or rules for loving someone. It's different for each individual person I guess. If you've ever been taken aback, felt like you were going to fall down because something hit you so hard, or just stared in awe of someone or something for absolutely no reason but to make a memory of it then I say that's love. Just my opinion on that though.

I don't understand why people have this need to know "why" they are loved. Maybe they simply don't understand love? Perhaps they are just insecure with themselves and need that validation. I think that if you have ever felt real love, whether it is for or from someone or something then you would just understand the why of it.
I'm not making any sense now. I didn't really plan this out. All I was trying to say is that I love my Mother and would do anything for her. I think what brought this about was a dream I have been having, a dream that scares me to death. I'm not going to go into detail about the dream, but in it my Mother isn't there. I don't know if she's gone, or just somewhere far away. All that stands out is that she isn't there near me. If anything were to ever happen to her I don't know what I would do. I thought about it today, and I think that the world would somehow become a bigger scarier place. It would feel less safe without her.

I really need to stop now. I simply love my Mother.

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