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May 23rd
(I'm feeling angry)
My day was f’d up. First period was good like normal.
2nd period is always a disaster. Today a boy was making a statement saying brain cells come back once they die, myself along with another class mate tell him “no brain cells don’t come back, once they die, they die.” He tried arguing with us, Coach stepped in saying myself and the other class mate are right. The boy got angry, and started saying shit about the 2 of us geniuses as he called us. like my normal self I stood up for the both of us, he called me some names, picking on my glasses, saying I looked like a duck and I was more or less a geek and have no friends. I told him I’d never help him with anything again, I’ve helped him with class work, quizzes, ect. He said I never helped him, whatever. So he proceed to pick on me, I can’t help the fact that he’s stupid and wanted to argue a false point. He’s just embarrassed that he was wrong and to girls proved it. The whole time my adrenalin was kickin in, and fast. I had to use every ounce of energy I had to restrain myself from jumping over ever table in my way and beating the hell out of him. Took me all day to chill out.
Than after that class was over, I got into the clinic and saw my friend lying on a cot. She was having a small seizure, or more like some tremors fixin to go into a seizure. It’s frightening. I hated seeing my friend like that. She was barley with it. I began crying while sitting with her. I rubbed her back and talked about nothing of sense, hoping I’d get her mind on other things. It worked. She hadn’t been taking her meds for a while. She could eventually have a stoke…
I got to 3rd period trying to keep things together. Didn’t work how I wanted it to… images of my friend were stuck in my head along with the anger, and rage still free flowing threw my body. I wasn’t upset because of the names I was called but because I really wanted to fight him, If I was in Mr. Harvie’s none of this would have happened, he would have taken this boy aside and told him off, I would know he’s done it before for me.
I just keep thinking about my friend, I can't bare to lose another; it hurt to much the first time. Kristen, 7th grade, had a locker 1 down from mine, she could never get the lock opened, and she didn't make it to the first day of school. She had a hole in her heart and died in the night from a heart attach. She was always there for me, I didn't go to calling hours, and I didn’t want to see her lying in the coffin never able to make me laugh again. grrr.
Pisses me off. I never realized I had a temper, when I was around Michael is never came out, maybe once when sis hit me with a crayon. Michael and I never yelled at one another, we always talked threw our problems. But since he's away right now, blahsay....IDK My temper is one sid of me I never want Michael to see... I reather not let anyone see it, people's jaw drops when ever a curse word flied out, it's not normal thing for me, so when they see me angry and raging with aggression. grrr.
Anyone dare mess with MY friends, My family, or even me will get whats coming to them, if not by me, than by someone with a hire athority... Should have gottin Mr. Frizel in the room when this was going on, I didn't even call this boy a name, he sunk low and did, lmao. a duck, Wonder if he saw that picture from ceramics class?!?!?!
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