*Crying*
Yeah, that's right..........crying.
Can't help it.
I hurt.
It can't stop soon enough.

First let me say that I've been delightfully pain free for the last few days.
I have felt more than a few moments of joy.
I've danced.
Not just in my heart.
I've dance with my body and soul......
I 've felt so good that I have omitted 2 of my pain meds both yesterday and today.

I thought I'd come so far......

Now I'm paying for it.
I draw the curtains closed.
In the dark again.
No comfort for my stupidity.
Only nerve breaking pain.
When will I ever learn.

Swallow more pills Candy.
Stop the tears.
On your knees.
Pray though the pain.
It's all there is right now.

I'm so weary of this.
But I'll never give up.

I know your're out there.
Love you peeps,
Candy