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My Gifts and The Knowledge to Use Them
(I'm feeling accomplished)
Lately I have been given knowledge and insight on what I probably will be doing the rest of my life. As many of you know I'm still wondering what the hairy heck I'm supposed to be doing. What I was born for. Photography is only part of my path. I have been given knowledge recently on the other part of my path. To pay forward what I have been given to help me survive and thrive.
I was a mess most of my life. The way I grew up wasn't bad but the things I learned from influential people in my life almost destroyed me. Or more over I let it almost destroy me. I had to get over or more over learn to live with the things I had done to me. I did a video on self forgiveness a while back. Next up........Self Love and love unconditionally for you by you. Yep I can say now that I love myself. It wasn't easy loving me for warts and all but I managed. I had too. For you are really the only one you have. That's another story.
Last night someone was brought to my doorstep by our Creator, having a panic attack. I've had them before and they can be nasty understating that. Double that with the person's young age and the fact I believe it was compounded by a Post Traumatic Stress attack......I've had those too and both at the same time. Needless to say. Between my husband and I we got her out of the tree she had climbed into and we called someone for her to help her. I had to really focus not to be drawn into the energy she was putting out and negative at that but I managed and was able to proactively help her. What I really saw in that chair was a younger version of myself. It was stark reality time. For this is where I came from. Broken, mind body and spirit. But knowing all this I was able to reach out with my knowledge and help her. I found it easy but seeing myself, my younger self really broke my heart. I wasted so many years crippled. I don't want another person to have to wait until they are in their 40's to have this great and healing knowledge I have.
For days I have felt a sense of purpose I haven't felt the whole of my life. Like something blooming inside of me. Knowledge, wisdom and courage to heal brought me to where I am right now in my life. For everthing you go though that does not kill you makes you stronger if you take that knowledge and use it and don't let it use you. I believe Our Creator has spoken too me. It wasn't loud but a small clear Your time is now. Go back to college. Get your degree in psychology and help those who have not found themselves. Work with fellow survivors and help them became thrivers. It's possible because I am living proof. I survived. Learned to thrive. That is Roz's Concept Thriving. I have a purpose. I have a reason to be here. I'm not just taking up space and using air. I am not stupid, ugly or invisable. My ex was wrong. My mother was wrong and she admitted that recently. My father however was right. Actually I hear him clear as day. "Just do it!" It's good to know finally what I am going to be doing. It's good to know I love me for me. It's good to know that what ever life throws at me, I can take it, run with it. Use it and not let it use me. Keep Moving Forward. Now since I came by this knowledge and wisdom I thank our Creator my ancestors and mentors both here on this earth and the ones beyond this life. I also want to thank you my friends for helping me, having faith in me. Encouraging me. Many Blessings to you all. Love, Rose
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