My  nightmare........


I wake up in the morning and call him. He answers and we talk for a long time, after a while i say "I need to go take a shower." he says,"okay well, i'm going to go back to bed ect. (this is what happens every school day almost) I go take a shower and then go to school. I get to school and someone's always crying or blabbing about how sucky there  life is. Other than that my day is awesome. I talk about him all day to my friends telling them that in about a week or so I'm going to get to see him. All throughout the day, i daydream of him. I get in the car afterschool and my mom doesnt look me in the eyes. I ask her whats wrong but she doesnt answer, she changes the subject, i figure its just something thts bothering her. So i ask for the phone so i can txt him and call to tell him i'm okay after school. I call about three times and i get the answering machine. I shrug it off saying maybe he's taking a nap and has his phone on silent. i try back 2 hours later, still, no answer. Okay, thats nothing to be worried about hes probably just doing something with his brothers he'll call back. I get ready to go to bed and by this time, I'm worried sick. I call over and over. trying to think optimisticly Finally i go to sleep after trying to find a comfortable spot to lay in my bed. In the morning i call again and again, still no answer. i listen to his voicemail and leave a message."Well, i guess your sleeping when you wake up goodmorning stay safe and i love you." again, i get ready for school and go to school i dont tell anyone what happened cuz its probably no big deal. I'm soooo worried now. I get into the car feeling sick to my stomache and i call again. "hello?" a female voice answers. "Hey! is travis there?" I ask a little worried. "um...."~click~ she hung up on me.....I'm trying to think optimisticly still. Then the phone rings. I pick it up and answer anxiously " Hey, Travis?" another girl answers. "I'm......ssoo soo sorry.........." she says that and by now i'm crying. "What happened!?! where's travis?!" His mom says,"he.....hes dead sierra...He..he got into a car accident and died a day ago." I drop the phone and stare blankly out the window. My mom asks me if i'm okay and embrasses me. I jump out of the car and run. i run to the far side of the feild thinking, this is some sick joke....this isnt happening. I shutdown......i grab the phone and call again and again.......When again, his mom answers i scream at her and tell her shes lying this cant be true!!!!!! I continue yelling while i cry i can hear her sobbing. I yell and yell until i dont have any voice left. I just sit there staring. not at anything in particular. i finally get up and walk slowly back to where my moms waiting in the car. Her eyes are red. and I know its true. I blame myself........i dont know why....there's a whole in my heart. I feel sooo alone, I cant cry, i cant speak i just sit there in the car as still as the night that finally falls over my house, I stare at his picture. I just stare at it. My mom and siblings all come into my room and try feeding me and comforting me. I just shrug them off and i dont move. i dont say anything. I call his phone over and over just listening to his voicemail. I cant help but cry everytime i hear it. My mom gets me to eat something, I think.....Travis wants me to stay alive.....he told me that....... At his funeral I stare at him in his coffin and cry over him screaming at everybody...Some of his and my internet friends have came. they pry me off of him and hold me in there arms. I Just scream as they close his coffin I tear through them open it and kiss his lips. They're icecold. I cry and i let them take me away. As i ride in the car to the cemetary I just stare out the window crying. I look at my ring and remember everything he's ever told me. we finally get there and as they lower the casket i'm right next to it crying and telling him i love him and i'm sorry. Once again they pick me up. When they cover up his grave and everyone starts leaving....I hug his parents.his siblings and then i sit at his grave and look at the gravestone. It says, trustworthy friend,and husband. I cry and i hug the stone clinging onto it and i just sit there. I dont move even when they try to make me. I finally get up after spending the night there....our friends have waited with me and i follow them trying my hardest to smile. I can feel travis with me.....it feels llike hes right behind me watching me. I smile and i look at my friends. and tell them, I need to be happy for him. that's all he wanted.........The time goes on.....i cry every night and i never go out with anyone. i grow up and write a book for him. a manga book. based on every part of the one he wanted to make. the book he told me he wanted to make. i illustrate it and put a picture of him on the back. I go to his grave every day and just spend time with him there. after a while his precsense disappeared. but i still feel him looking down on me. i know hes happy where he is and that he'll wait for me where he is. I smile everday but i cry at the same time thinking of all the good times we spent together. People tell me to just forget it and move on. but stubborn me. i'll never move on from the most perfect person i had ever met. 

i actually had this dream...........it was soooo sad...........i cried......all night........but i couldnt tell travis.........because i'd end up crying even more............now he'll know......i never ever wana lose you travis.......i love you so much

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