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MONDAY, JUNE 16, 2008 (4:37 PM)

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Tee's step by step recovery program

(I'm feeling busy)

One of my favourite TV characters once said "it takes half the total time you dated someone to get over them."

ouch.

I feel bad for people trying to recover from long relationships.

Here's a little progress report.

WEEK 1 - Apathy.

The key was to pretend like nothing had happened. Don't scour old pictures. Delete all traces of that person from your computer and apartment. And most importantly: STAY BUSY. None of this was hard for me. I've was embracing having my old life back. Which meant, more time listening to my favourite bad music as loudly as possible and rediscovering old habits that my relationship with The Boy didn't allow or make room for.
ie. smoking, (dirty discussing and dangerous habit) energy drink consuming, and staying up till the wee hours of the morning gossiping to my freinds while tagging things i like in fashion mags.

But most importantly: STAYING BUSY.

I've been working as a producer for an upcoming production of A Midsummer Night's Dream. This show has become the significant other in my life and I'm loving. Going to rehersals planning photo shoots, and talking to our publisist helped me sail through week one relatively unscathed.

Week 2 - Anger

I've almsot reached the end of the second week and the thoughts plaguing my mind have been mostly ones of resentment and frustration.

I find myself angry about the fact that even at the bitter end he couldn't give me a reason why he was ending the relationship, so I can't help but think of him as a coward running away from a potentionally good situtation because he's a scared little boy. He couldn't muster up the strength to fight for us.

Resentment that it took so much for me to make this relationship work. I had to force myself to trust him. I had to get rid of my baggage and give myself and us a fresh start. I did all this in favour of giving us a fighting chance. And at the first sign of things not being %100 (and without explanation as to why they're not) he pulls the plug.

While I'm walking to work or lying in my bed at night I have fake confrontations with him in my head in which i say the exact thing that will put him in his place exactly how i want to say it. Usually involving insults about him being an overparticular control freak who can't handle anything that he can't schedule or put in his day-book. (ugh. freakin' Virgos.) ie. a relationship.

My favourite one is:

"Go lie in your twin bed you damn coward. I hope your To-Do list keeps you warm at night."

wow. even typing that felt amazing.

So I'll keep you posted as the weeks role by.

Category: Love & Relationships

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Posted Jun 16, 08 by AndrewAtoZ (

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ohh.. Sorry to hear this Tee...