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WEDNESDAY, APRIL 30, 2008 (8:32 PM)

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The Tears Finally Come

(I'm feeling depressed)

When you think everything is working out and getting better, you get slapped in the face.

If you didnt know..ive sorta been going through a rough time lately. And if you kno me well enough at all you know that i try and keep my head up and just smile. Well its been really hard lately. I've felt so....blah. And depressed. I thought it was getting better. Especially seeing graduation is coming up and my last day of school is the 13th so we have like 9 school days left. Exciting right? Especially seeing nobody had talked to me yet bout getting kicked of national honor society so they told me not to worry about it because they prolly wont do anything.

Well..then today at lunch..i get told I need to talk to one of my teachers (hes the guy that was supposed to tell me when my hearing is) after school. So i go in there after school. My hearing is Friday morning at 7:50. I'm pretty sure im not gunna get kicked off. I dont have my hopes high but ive been reassured by so many ppl; students, teachers, parents, that they prolly wont. But i will get punished. ........Do you realize how furious I am????? I have 9 DAYS LEFT OF SCHOOL!!! and then i graduate...9!!! they have waited 3 WEEKS for this hearing. They should have done it right when i got back from florida. Plus the fact that i shouldnt even really be getting in trouble. UGH!!

I have to plead my case and defend myself friday in front of my teachers. I already know that 2 will probably vote that i dont get kicked out, but idk how many are gunna be there.

How much more do i have to go through? I've gone through 10 times more than kids at my school have for getting caught drinking and driving or possesions! Thats not right!!

I've never got in trouble with the law, im not a bad kid!! I've worked my butt off to get into the national honor society!!

The guy mentioned that one of the options of punishment would be that i wont be able to wear the rope that says i was in NHS for graduation. I kno thats not a big deal to most but it is to me!! I've worked SOOO hard more than any of these ppl kno to get that stupid rope and the honor and to be recognized!! And im getting tossed to the side and crucified because i made one poor choice. A really small choice i may add. Yea it was dumb but it was nothing compared to what the other ppl have done in my class!

But all i can do is defend myself..its just BS.
I've been holding this in all day...a tear finally falls.

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Posted May 1, 08 by AndrewAtoZ
Sorry, but I hope you don't go into the hearing with the defense that other people didn't worse things. That's not a legitimate reason, and the teachers won't buy it.

Posted Apr 30, 08 by glad2bhere (

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I echo Stanky's comment word for word. Let us know, when you can, how the hearing went, and whatever the result, your friends here love you, and it sounds like many people in your offline life love and support you, too. I know you always try to stay positive, but I totally understand your tears in this situation. After Friday, I hope any tears you shed will be tears of joy. Love you, Hannah!

Posted Apr 30, 08 by sansha.plague
what exactly happened

Posted Apr 30, 08 by theoctaboutsstudios
dont you worry lilosh13,,,this to will pass.
and one day be behind you... and over with
and your ready and able to move on with the future befor
you know it,,,,,
take care and great hearing from you oct.