HI EVERYONE , AT FIRST I WANT TO SAY THAT I FEEL SO GLAD CUZ I GET BACK HERE AND START CONTACT WITH YOU AGAIN . THAT REALLY MEANS ALOT TO ME . 
SO I'VE BEEN THROUGH MANY THINGS SINCE LAST TIME I WAS HERE .FIRST I WANT TO SAY SOMTHING ABOUT ME AND MY FAMILY . I AM THE YOUNGEST SON IN THE FAMILY AND THAT SOMTIMES MAKE ME FEEL BAD . I ONLY HAVE ONE OLDER BROTHER (3YRS).SOMETIMES I FEEL THAT I AM NOT (LOVED) INSIDE THE FAMILY . SOMETIMES I FEEL THAT PARENTS ALAYS KEEP THE BEST FOR MY BROTHER , I FEEL THAT ALTHOUGH THESE PARENTS ARE MY BIOLOGICAL PARENTS . I DO NOT REALLY KNOW WHY . AS YOU CAN READ IN MY FIRST BLOG HERE I BEEN FORCED TO STUDY ENGINEERING BEFORE BUT NOW I STOPED THAT AFTER A  TWICE FAIL IN ENGINEERING COLLEGE.I AM STUDYING BUSINESS ADMINISTRATION NOW (3RD YEAR) . I HAVE 3,5 SEMESTERS REMAINING. LOOK , I AM LIVING IN A 1 ROOM APARTMENT NEAR MY COLLEGE NOW . TO BE HONEST I AM STAYING IN THIS APARTMENT TO BE NEAR MY COLLEGE BUT ITS NOT ONLY REASON. MY 2ND ONE IS TO BE AWAY FROM FAMILY ALTHOUGH THEY ARE ONLY 15.5 MILES AWAY . I ALMOST SEE FAMILY EVERY 1 OR 2 WEEKS . YOU KNOW : SOMETIMES I FEEL THAT THEY WANT ME TO BE ALWAYS NEED THEM .THAT REALLY FREAKS ME L.SO , WHAT CAN I DO TO GET RID OF THAT ??????????????????

I REALLY NEED OPINIONS HERE ....THANKS SO  MUCH