N 5 Days I Will Be 21 N Yet I feel so little change im about 2 start college 4 da 1st time only left 2 b afraide of failin every class i take i didn't have 2 pass mii states tx like every1 else does i didn't have 2 get 24 credits like every1 else i didn't take mi S.A.T.'s like every1 else mi standards were lowered so dat way i could gradurate n it was all part of da skools plan bcuz i wasn't smart enuff i am about 2 b 21 n still i feel so empty i wanna kno n feel real luv yet no1 will give mi da dance i kno ima damaged gurl i kno i have emoitsions dat most gurls mi age don't have mi 21st bday is n 5 days i wanted 2 go 2 da salon n get pampered get mi nails done a petty cure mi hair done n i wanted 2 go 2 da mall or burlington n get a cute new outfit wit cute new shoes(witch mite i add i put on layaway 2 weeks ago its so flipin cute 2) n go 2 da club n jus let all da stress life has been causein mii go but now it wont happen i wanted mii 21 bday 2 b da best bday i eva had no yellin no angel do dis angel do dat can u get mi dis can u clean dat n i kno dat all dat is gonna happen its a given i have no man 2 take mi out 2 dinner n a movie n get mi wat i want so far i kno dat ima be goin 2 2 different clubs 1 on fri n a otha on sat n thursday i will be seein jeff dunham(his SO funny) but no salon or day @ da spa no new out let alone new shoes no new colths no lukin sexii no feelin fablous no feel grown jus mo depression mo sadness n mo heartacke as much as i wish mi life wud get easyer n as much as i wish i cud b happy n as much as i wish dat i cud find dat rite guy n feel like sum1 is gonna undastand mi n b mii gangsta gentlemen mi hope n faith is runnin dry n da luv part runnin dry yea i model n mi city but it aint nothin big so ima take mi life 2 da next level ima get mi degree n communitcatsions n ima create a resume so i can b 1 of da sexyest female radio personalitys 2 eva cum about if i can't make it n da modelin,singing,danceing, n acting ive told mi friend ova n ova again" if i eva dated 1 of mi dream men(celebs dat i dream of being wit) i kno n da back of da head dey wud b thinkin shes only usein mi 2 get her dreams" well guess wat i got mi dreams witout ya so i dont need ya 2 make dem big nitha im startin to relize who mi real friends r n i relize most of dem jus think im 1 big fat sympthy case so like da song goes" u jus do u umma do mi umma do mi" if u can't help mi wen i need u n answer mi questions den @least say "i dont kno how 2 answer dat im sorrii" gimmie sumthin u dont have 2 answer da question but its betta den not tryin @ all im sofetly cryin 2 miself bcuz everythin dat ive thought was gonna happen is fallin apart i jus dont kno if im ready 2 b 21....
*~*1Luv*~*
*Angel Baby*